Holding it together...

Lelove

the day will come when he comes to you and tells you that he has met someone. at the moment your stomach will climb up to your throat. and it will take everything within you to not breakdown right in front of him. you will do whatever it takes to hold it together as long as possible. you will stand there numb listening to the loveliness of his words...how he wants you to be just as happy. you begin to remember... you so deeply want to cry...so deeply want to scream....so deeply want to crawl up into a ball and pretend this wasn't real. you begin to remember... what it was like to be together...how happy you were, how it was the type of love that consumes you. where your hands fit into one anothers perfectly. the beauty of it, the sweetness of it. you so desperately want to be happy for him...but pain overcomes you instead. it hurts to think this is really it. the end. you never really ever said goodbye.you never thought you would have to.  to think...this is the last time you shall hear his voice...look into his eyes... touch his face. the last time...tears fill your eyes and you straighten up and form the best smile you possibly can in that moment...you touch his cheek and turn... and at the moment you know that it's over. the only thing left are memories...the one's you once made...the laughs you once had...the tears that were caused, beautiful moments you shared,  ones that made you, you. your feet can barely move...and it takes everything in you to keep walking forward and not turning back. it takes everything in you.