an open window...

first off the internet has been down...which sadly results to no blogging or social networking... these last few days have been a little rough. it's interesting to think back at how life was before social media took over. how did we ever survive right?! ha. but today sitting here in this tranquil coffee house staring out this overly sized window with my americano in hand and light music playing in the background i feel calm, and at peace, all is whole again. these past weeks i have done a lot of thinking, a lot of soul searching and a lot meditating. i lay in my bed before i fall asleep or rise to start my day thinking about my future, about things that are going on presently and the past all of those memories that shaped my life into what it is today. A couple of days ago my sister asked me "what makes you come alive?" a question that sent goosebumps down my spine. the good kind though, you know the ones that make you do a little move of excitement because it makes you feel all sorts of wonderful inside. i had to sit for a moment before answering because in all honestly there are so many things that bring me alive. writing and blogging on this darling site that brings me alive, sharing a piece of me with all of you, knowing i can be honest, real and upfront...that brings me alive. mentoring young adults, inspiring a younger generation, seeing them push towards dreams and success that brings me alive. seeing high school students go after Jesus, surrendering all that they have and all that they are to him that brings me alive, traveling and pursuing my own aspirations, goals, and dreams and seeing those i love do so also, god's love, his selfless, powerful, unconditional love that brings me alive. listening to the lyrics of a song, hearing peoples stories in life, providing for others, making a difference even the smallest kind...i could go on and on about what brings me alive... i think about the future about where i'll be in the next year or even few months. i have these dreams ones that may seem impossible to others but ones that i'll never stop pushing towards. i see these plans for my life that have already started and it brings happiness and warmth deep within. i see this world outside this window that i sit in front of and i yearn to run to it and chase after every opportunity...but i know i must be reminded at times to be patient and things will fall into place when they are suppose to...so i sit here and wait staring out this opened window of this little coffee house that i have come to adore... so tell me what things brings you alive?!?!...