that thing called love...

she loved him too much
to let him go completely.
she couldn't bare to let him walk out of her life forever
she new it was the right thing 
she knew she would be better off...but
that didn't matter.
how do you say goodbye to someone that is apart of your life
apart of you
just as much as you are to them.
despite the times you want them gone...they still stick around
deep inside you're okay with that...
you don't desire them to ever leave...
in fear that if you really say goodbye...then that's it. 
its gone...over...that feeling
she loved him so much she couldn't let him walk away.
the pain
the hurt
the anger
the love...the overwhelming, uncontrollable, intoxicating feeling of love...
it still resides within her
hoping it would just vanish...hoping it would evaporate into thin air
but it still lingers
in her veins
in her heart and as much as she wants him gone
she can't bare the thought...